When will I be loved ?

I always thought that when people told me I had to love myself before loving someone else they were exagerating the merits of this self-love movement.

But, the more I think about it, the more I arrive to the following conclusion :

In order to be able to receive love, you have to be able to open yourself up to it.
Top open one's self up, means you have to trust yourself.
To trust yourself, you need to know your limits and your capacities.
And for that you have to accept them !

Anyway, a year ago I thought to myself that I couldn't learn to understand myself let alone like or love myself without exterior help. Without someone close to me who would reflect on me the error of my ways or the qualities that lie deep within me. My hidden potential or whatever.

Now, I believe I'm the only one who can uncover that reality. Whether someone's in my life or not, it doesn't matter. This is a matter to be settled with Me, Myself and I.

Believing this is liberating and scary all at once. It's fun to know I don't need anyone to discover myself. I'm not doomed to be chained to someone for the rest of my days. On the other hand, the amplituted of the announced task is quite gigantic. Doing this all by my lonesome (even if I'm with someone at some point) is far from being settling. It takes courgae to dig deep and face what you uncover.

I uncovered that I have pride to fill a few sky scrapers. I've always been a sore loser and have always cared about what people think of me, because I hate looking weak or needy or anything else that might cross anyone's mind. So I'm working on that and admitting it to people is the first step. I don't know what the second one is, and even if there is one...

I'm still not sure that saying is true (having to love yourself before being able to love someone else). But if it is, I'm working on it !